→Relationships….too difficult in China

From my own personal experiences, relationships that I am looking forward to are somehow much forbidden. I mean, I have lots of friends, but sometimes they are not as important when you reach certain point of life. Being a teen is very tragic. I can’t do things I am looking forward to, because I don’t belong to the same group as the other. You know Romeo and Juliet, when people come from different family tribes, they can’t be together.
To gain relationships, we might have to pay it. As you are worrying about these things, you somehow deceive you friends, but not on purpose. And to a certain point, you started seeking over them, and somehow seeking over reality. You start keeping all secrets as personal, without sharing any disappointment and frustration. After a few times, you are all alone. Because the girl I used to be is different than the girl am now. Later on, you might feel happy because you finally found what you are essentially looking for, and friends are not important as before.
Sometimes relationships are stupid; at least it made you stupid. Even though we understand, relationships can’t last forever, but we still do it, throwing out our heart and soul to try it. When you gain something, you just felt you are special from other. But when you fail, you might find how doltish it is.
In this age, we might find life is full of childish and immature events. Sure we do, but it’s a way to maturity. As we start to understand the true meaning of relationships, we will deserve it someday. We cry over mistakes and errors, even cry over our recklessness…but we can’t help it, this is life, and this is relationship.

→Frustrations

I guess my life, is just jokes that makes you feel too excessive. As At least in my own, I am getting frustrated during these few days. So many problems to be worried about; but some others said that, it’s just a stage of growing, take it easy. EASY? What easy? I should understand how many opponents I will deserve and how many I have now and in the future. Things got rough and tough.
What about relationships? Why do people annoy you so much when you are already being frustrated about school work? It’s continuously taking my time and forces me to do things I don’t want to. I mean, I don’t want to hurt people. I also have something that I want. Obviously I am being NICE, or KIND. I guess no one actually understands my feelings about this. Because no one in the class or close to me gets that much experience to this. I guess I am being colder and colder through so many experiences. You know what? If people like them annoy me once again, I might tell them I have a guy friend, already. Sure I like a guy, and he asks me out, life is just fine like this, life is so great. I don’t ask for more extra people. Seriously, I don’t want to hurt anyone. If you like me, don’t annoy me.
Homework? What?? I want freedom, truly. Being ambitious is very tired, very. So many complicate events crossing in my mind and homework… are something like a “keep out” sign to other planning. I must stop worrying about something and got disturbed. Because these things leads to my future, if I can’t complete them well, I might turn into a failure.
Life is so doltish. I guess I need to take a break from reality.

→First Post~short.

= =Uhh…Well, in fact I don’t know why I need a blog…Maybe sometimes I need a place to share my feelings and show my frustration…or writing a “diary”? But, the problem is that I can’t always illustrate my thoughts in English, because English is my second language. So! I do not have a goal as a blogger; I just do it because I feel like it. I wonder when I will forget about this blog and disappear without presence.

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